Enthusiasm & Values

-Enthusiasm & Values

Dec 16/17 2017



Just my trains of thoughts regarding enthusiasm (and values in general)
[that too kind of brought about the actualization of this blog]




I actually like to comment on many things (directly replying or not); being opinionated. Huge parts of what made me as a person, my stances and what I stand for actually came from thinking in reaction to the issues that I met or came up, trying to find out things and figuring it out. Even if it's from something as mundane and 'insignificant' as a one-liner comment I'd see any day. People see it as making a point, I see it as organizing myself.


Thing is, I know people in general hate serious talks, sometimes seeing it as annoyance. I know they'd like to see simply funny feeds on their timeline. Will most likely skip over anything that sounds serious, but doesn't feel that relatable to them (or doesn't click bait them enough). Will perhaps say belittling comments towards shown enthusiasm that morphs into something anything close to 'serious'. I can only hope people that I actually try to embrace into my life aren't of those kinds.


I am an enthusiastic person, by heart & by soul, despite at times showing stoic surfaces. I love being totally ecstatic at every single thing I love or find interesting. This is not just for fandom or hobby things, but also discussions of various matters. That's also why, I lowkey hate it when people tell me to 'calm down' (when me or other people were being enthusiastic in talking about what they love or intrigued them), when they're being like, unresponsive or unattentive conversation partner (but this is depending on condition is usually majorly tolerable), or when they're belittling my thinking capability or judgements (especially on things that I love, am actually familiar with, or had left significant impression on me; questioning is another matter, though). If it doesn't irk me or drive me crazy, it most likely kills me inside.


I love intense people. I love people who know what they like and love. All the whys, the values & significances they see in them rather than 'I just like them'. I will probably fall in love with you if you can speak of what you love with teary eyes yet sound arguments at the same time. I am basically a creature that almost literally lives on enthusiasm, anyway. Since childhood when I barely have anyone to talk to, in those times I was bullied for years for nonsensical reasons (perhaps being 'unrelatable', 'gloomy', or simply being 'out of the loop'), or in those times pressures are the hardest and it was on my darkest hours, I rely on it.


When life is lifeless to me in any way, I would enjoy those thrills & chills of listening to a certain song with amazing or precise sounds, or just downright innovative & diverse or complex sounds. I would mark forever those stabs of when you realize what a song with its lyric refers to, screams of people singing angsty (or happy, really) songs. I would bask in those silly but intense heights of happiness when watching a performance or reading a story, or maybe eating a food so good you want to cry. To me, that's what makes life worth it. If you know what you love and be sincere about it, it will surely get you somewhere. Maybe not fame or money, but surely something precious and treasurable. Life is what people make of it, right? So, what make of it, indeed? That's the total importance of figuring things out and the sincerity of a value, I'd like to think.


My views on these though, are also why I don't trust people, but rather the values they hold at that point in time. People changes, values (not as a set, like 'what is considered', rather by itself) are timeless. No, your family might not always know the best for you. No, your significant other might not know how to act healthily in a relationship. No, that stranger on the road might indeed know more about an issue more than the lecturer in your class. As far the argument is sound and you look more, you'd know. Because I believe with love, open-mind, and enthusiasm comes a strong mind, and with hatred, closed-mind and obsession comes a convoluted one.


All in all, I'm just saying, if you really love something, sincerely, please keep on doing it. Maybe not as a daily thing or such because of times restraints or because of other responsibilities in your way, but please try to not forget it? If it's not enough reason that it's for yourself, maybe know that it gives life to others or even inspire them? Life is a vessel that one surely can't fill alone, including you and I, so let's make it easier to be worthwhile. Share your happiness or what you like, create things that you get inspired to, discuss or research something that intrigues you with a clear mind, enjoy shows or other things with fans alike and know what you like about it (amongst many things). Let's drown the bad with the good and create a majestic yacht.


P.S.: Anyway, these are just thoughts that came from me realizing I like to make quite long or comprehensive [very, enthusiastic] comments on YouTube, and thinking I should probably put them on a blog instead (but then again, who will even read, right).

(Welp I guess I still should make them anyway, you know, to revisit my thoughts, at least. Making them now.)

(Yeah that was anti-climatic wwww)

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